Silly life rambles about jellybeans + glass elevators .

January 15, 2010

It hurts, you know. Even when I say ‘It’s okay’ every time we go through this, it still does all the same.

(Makes me wonder sometimes why I put up with you, but then I realize that’s what friends are for. And I can’t hate you because there’s a difference between what I want and what I can. That irritates me.)

Oh wow. December 31, 2009

I think I just understood what it means to put your own experiences into music.

It’s pretty fun. =] Heh~

December 27, 2009

Been a long time since I’ve updated this blog, but what can I say? Journaling is much more addictive, no offense. xD;

Anyhow. Besides the obvious Merry Christmas =D, there’s really…nothing much to say. Except that GAH, I miss my friends. T__T;; It doesn’t help that I dunno how to say ‘Hey, I miss you guys alot, let’s hang out before the holidays are done?” in plain English. (Am too awkward.) Not that it’s a bad thing, I guess…am piled up with family activities. I guess.

Uhmm what else? I dunno. =] MATH IS HARD. D=< And uh. Yeah. Sucks that holidays are gonna be over so fast. >__>;; Mmm.

November 22, 2009

I think that children with parents that love each other are very, very lucky.

=]

November 18, 2009

Whywhywhywhhhy?? D:

I gotta keep reminding myself to not get caught up in this hype! It’s not the academics so much that count in this high school career, but the friendships you make! Hurting someone for your own sake isn’t all that! I keep reminding myself not to do it…but everyone else does it…and I’m just so utterly confused. Is it okay? Is it not okay?

Am I supposed to ‘stick with it’, but make myself unhappy and insecure? Or move away and satisfy my needs, but make someone else unhappy? Or is it that I just have to change my perspective? >__<;; But it’s so. darn. hard!

It’s not fair that where I stand is far away from where I want to.

What would -you- do? =/

It seems it’s true! November 8, 2009

That’s right! From the looks of it, I’m positive that’s for sure! There’s got to be someone!…

…But you know what? Too bad it can’t be me. It just can’t.

I WANT A DOG! <3 <3 <3 oAo; October 21, 2009

Crap. I think they’re onto me.

Anyway, I just went to see my wonderful (cough) math tutor! xD;; (That was sarcasm back there. >__>;)

But more importantly, I saw his SUPER! UBER! CUTE! ADORABLE AND SWEET! DOOOOOGGGYYYYYY! 8DDDD! <3 <3 <3 <3 Yesyesyes. Today, since there were no visitors around eating at the dinner table for him to steal food from, we had a fun time playing together! He keeps jumping all over me! And whenever I sit, he jumps right into my lap and nuzzles up! Soooo cute…and whenever I stand up to get something, he follows me with his tail wagging~ (And when I left, he was whining and tried to follow me out! Ahaa~ <3 )

And then I goes home and announce to my parents (for the 100x time), “I want a dog!”, and I expect them to exchange that ‘Here we go again’ look. (But not before they scream all girly when I tell them how I’ve touched a dog and usher me off to some nearby P*rell. Dad sez “Thank goodness you didn’t kiss him or anything”. I did. >__>; Or more of, he did. With his big slobbery tongue, on the chin! Ahaa~)

But instead, they go into a rampage laugh about “Remember that dog we had?” “Remember how you washed it every single day?” “Remember how that gave the little puppy an ear infection?” “That’s why we had to give him away!”

The reason why I never had a dog right now isn’t because the dog was born with an ear infection as my parents have consoled me before. It’s because they’re freakin neat freaks that can’t stand the slightest dog hair around, that THEY gave the poor little puppy an ear infection by constantly washing his ears, and then blamed it on the pet store and returned him.

…

…I hate my life. =____=;

If I could grant you one wish / I wish you could see the way you kiss October 11, 2009

We were talking / just like this

One moment

And the next / you’re gone

YAY FOR SONGS.

I’m not exactly dedicated to anything much. >__>; Even when I put my mind to something, it’s not very focused (unless it’s some English essay, script or art piece ;; ).

So basically, if you flip through my music notebook, you’ll scan through about what, give or take 11 songs?! xD;; But I’ve only really shown two. =P Because I’ll get through the first verse, chorus, then give up. =___=; If it’s crappy, anyway; don’t have much of a heart to finish it.

But then again, it’s not bad to give up, yeah?? It’s just gaining experience, the way I see it…>___>;; (And anyway, some of them have ended up sounding really similar to other songs that Tony later showed me, so I really gotta work on that ;; )

BUT THIS NEW SONG SEEMS TO PWN MY FIRST ONE. 8D YAY.

TT____TT;;

Just for fun with Emoticons =P (And the joy of my beautiful orange and blue Sens*ft scissors) October 9, 2009

The bell rang!

I was    :3    today, because I saw you heading for the door.

I became all    DX    when I tried to catch up with you the best I could.

Then I got    D :    because you got there much faster, and out the door even faster.  

So then I got all   : (   because I thought I ought to give up, so I just slowly packed up and came out.

And then my face went   : O!   because you were there waiting!

So then I was   : DDD   because we got to walk together.

…Yeah. >___>; I can’t figure out my freakin english assignment, so I’m being bored. (But that was cute, right? =D Right, riiiiiiight? =3 Ahaa~ I don’t like using those colourful animated emoticons on msn…they irritate me, strangely enough. )

OH YEAH. The cooooolest thing happened the other day. You know my spiffy, soft scissors?? 

Well. Arianne has -exactly- the same pair, and told me a little, little secret about them:

THE HANDLES CAN ERASE STUFF. 8D FREAKIN AMAZING MAGICAL STUFFS, I SAY.

So all you see is me erasing all my homework, study notes (whoops, not the brightest idea…anyhow, I jokes, I erased stuff I didn’t want, like those crappy drawings), whatever I can get my hands on…with those magical scissor handles. 

<3 My scissors. <3